Please Help Me….

I had watched Dr. Jack’s webinar last night.  I had avoided looking at his ad on Facebook for three days but finally gave in and watched it.  To understand that more, read “My Story.”    After all, I had read it all, spent countless dollars on books and programs that failed time and time again.  What was he possibly going to say that I had not heard before??

But my curiosity got the best of me that day, and I tuned in.  “If this is bad, I am not sitting here watching this,” I kept telling myself.

I sat down and watched and listened to a few minutes and then all of a sudden he said something I had never heard before.  And then he said another fact I had never heard before about thyroid disease.  I got up and got a notebook and a pen, and suddenly I was hanging on his every word, trying to jot down as much as I could of what he was saying.   I found myself copying his diagrams and notes, and listening intently.  I couldn’t believe he was finished because I wanted to hear more!

At the end, he gave an email to contact him.   I could barely read it in the notes because tears were dripping from my eyes onto the notebook.  In all the year’s I had Hashimoto’s no medical professional had ever explained it to me so that I really understood it, and yet this doctor had explained it so clearly to me that I felt like I finally understood why my symptoms got worse and worse and my medication just continued to go up.

I needed to know more, more about this man, more about his expertise and especially what he could do to help me, and I couldn’t wait a minute longer to find out.    So I sent the email, the highly sophisticated, intelligently worded email, “Please help me.”

I sat there fingers shaking, repeating over and over, “Please respond, please respond..”  He sent me a questionnaire that I answered in like fifteen minutes and quickly waited.   Dr. Jack responded about how fast I was moving on this, and I kept thinking how he had no idea how desperate I was for answers or help.  He made a time to talk and when he called he told me that he could help me.

I was scared…. scared to believe him….scared that maybe he couldn’t really help me, and scared that if I failed at this AGAIN… what would be left of my self esteem…

Doctor Jack:   “I know I can help you.  Did you know that your Hashimoto’s can go into remission?”

Me:  “What???  Is that possible?   But what if what you suggest doesn’t work, what then?”

Doctor Jack:  “Then it will my problem to figure out why.   Hashimoto’s is no mystery to me.”

Me:  “Well, what if I tell you things that happen like how I can gain five pounds overnight?”

Doctor Jack: “I promise you that I will believe everything you tell me, because I have seen all this before.”

And then all of a sudden, that little black cloud that was always seemed to be following me started to move, and I caught a glimpse of a little ray of sunshine……   I could feel it in my heart that something was different about this doctor, and for the first time in about twenty five years, I felt it………. HOPE.