Healing the inside helps the outside…

Hi Dr. Jack!!
        I wanted to tell you something.   The other day when you mentioned to me about my level of commitment to this, it really touched me.   I wanted to share that with you.   That’s what I was trying so hard to tell you the first day we talked.  It wasn’t that I didn’t give every diet a great level of commitment, it’s that no one believed I did.  I was doing the right things, even when no one was watching…… 
    And all their not believing in me, or believing what I said just kept cracking my self esteem.    Sometimes you say the littlest thing to me, but what it gives me is the glue to fix all those cracks.   Little by little, day by day its all coming back to me.
     I can’t say I have not had temptations for the last month because I have.   But it keep reminding myself every single time what the goal is.   And that it’s a lot like the fruit issue…. hold off as long as you can.   A couple of times I told myself, that if I was really desperate I could have it tomorrow.   but then tomorrow came and I made it through, and didn’t need it the next day.  
     I am sure when you took me, you didn’t realize what a mess I really was.   but little by little I am getting there.   For the first time in a long long time, I am proud of myself!!   And that really feels good!
YOU have a GREAT DAY!!!
Chris
Dear Chris,
Thank you and trust me, you are an absolute joy to work with. I look forward to your emails!!
Temptation will always be there. Although, it will diminish over time. Last night I walked past my sons Halloween candy bag and saw a snicker bar in there. For a split second I said to myself, “should I?”  Then I walked right past it and didn’t give it another thought. Literally, half a second.
Can’t wait to hear the weight report this week!
Dr. Jack

 

This poor man had said I could email him anytime and it got to be a daily habit.   It was a way to start out my day, sort out the day before and stay motivated.  When he wrote me something back, I read it about a hundred times in a day.  He made it easy to keep going with his upbeat attitude and always seeing something wonderful about what I had to say.
One day, during our weekly phone meeting, Dr. Jack told me that he really couldn’t believe my level of commitment to his plan.   He had no idea how hard I had worked at every plan I was on.  Yet as soon as I explained to someone that I had given it my best shot, they would question that.  “Did you write EVERYTHING down?  Did you follow it exactly?   Was there  day you cheated?”    No one believed me about how hard I had tried and after a while, I didn’t believe it either.    Maybe I didn’t write down all my water, maybe I missed a cup of something.   Little by little my self esteem got chipped away.
But here I was, with Dr. Jack, a month in and he is complimenting me about how well things are going.  People often underestimate the value of their words, good or bad.    I kept telling myself that if I let all the bad in to hurt me, I had to be open to hear the good too and let it heal me.
Suddenly, inside, I started feeling something I had not felt in a long time:  Powerful.    I started thinking that if things were going this well, I could sustain this.  I could keep going and with every pound I lost, part of my self esteem got glued back into place.  With every pound came more self confidence and more power.    Because that felt so good, it was easy to just keep going every single day.
I noticed that my food cravings became diminished.   Not snacking after dinner became automatic.  Going home and sleeping was on autopilot.   Life got easier.   I found that my mental clarity was better.  I used to joke that I had five piles of things on my classroom desk to do.  I could start a project and then have to stop and work on another, because I just couldn’t stay focused to finish one.  But suddenly, there were no piles.   The twenty plus hours of work I was taking home all the time got cut down.  I was able to get more accomplished in a day.   Inside of me was healing.
And then I noticed that the scale kept moving but also the image in the mirror kept changing too.    I wasn’t as puffy around my eyes.  Long set in wrinkles and lines were becoming less noticeable.   I started to realize that when nutrition finds its way to your little cells?  AND it manages to get in??  You feel different inside, and then you start to see it outside.   One month in….if I had learned all this??   What was I going to learn in a few months????  Wow…………

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