Chris,
Just looked through each day. Very good. Love the notes, especially the thought processes that you are going through. We will go over the past week tomorrow. Until then, keep being yourself. You are awesome and should be proud of your accomplishments over the past two weeks. This is one of the best emails ever. So many great statements. Then, to hear you are down? You are amazing. You get this and never forget how you felt in the past.
Dr. Jack
I was about two weeks in and things were going along. Scale went up and down but mostly down and I was following things to the letter of the law. In the beginning of this program, Dr. Jack asked me to send him my weekly journal where I wrote everything I ate. It was amazing to me that he would always forward back some notes about being careful about too many carrots or too many tomatoes. He would find these little things that nutritionist after nutritionist would look at and never see.
In two weeks, changes started happening. I was noticing that I was feeling different and suddenly, I started realizing that I was feeling BETTER. People you see all the time, ask you things. “How can you give up ……?” ‘I could never do this, I would be cheating all the time.”
Well, that is a big thing. First, I had promised myself that I was going to give this my 110% best and cheating would not be part of that. Second, if I did, I was always going to be honest about what I ate. And third, then I would have to explain to Dr. Jack what I did and why?? How could I do that?
A friend told me one day, “He will never know, just don’t tell him.” I could NEVER do that. That would be lying to him and to myself. I gave him my 100% trust and I expected his. We are a team. You don’t let your team down. Lying is not an option. If I was starving and I ate more than I should, I promised myself I was going to tell him so. After all he did for me, it would be unfair to not be truthful.
This man came along when I was at a real low. And he took me on as a patient. He knew I would be a problem case. He had invested tons of time, answering me every single day, every concern, every question. He had put in countless hours, making sure I was on track. And all he expected me to do was to follow what he told me to do? Is that worth a Snickers? No…..
I don’t cheat. I haven’t yet. Was I tempted? yeahhhhhhhhh…… isn’t everyone? It wasn’t easy getting rid of bad habits. But the thing was that he had educated me about those choices, and what they would do to me. Then there was the one thing I respected the most. Dr. Jack LIVES this way. One day, I asked him, what he ate in a day, and without a breath he explained it to me. Lots of doctors tell you what you should do, but this one is living the lifestyle he outlines for you.
Lots of times, before I met him, I had eaten what I thought was a healthy diet. And I explained to him, that before I met him, I was doing what I thought were good things. Now that I knew what was to be done and how to do it, if I chose to eat wrongly, then whatever happened was my own fault. I couldn’t cheat knowing what I learned and the fact that then I would be wasting his valuable time.
But the thing that has stopped me dead in my tracks all the time? What if I did and then my body would start going in reverse. What if the symptoms of my thyroid problem returned? After waiting all this time for it to get better? Um…. I don’t think so. So when temptation is sitting in front of me, I just keep reminding myself, why I got into this. How long did it take me to find this answer? Am I willing to risk all that? No way…… so no, I don’t cheat.