Why do my hands look weird? ohhhhh… those are bones!

I know it will sound silly…. It sounds silly even to me!!!   Today, I get out of the shower, and I realize I am a little tired.  After all, it was a crazy weekend.   I worked both jobs Friday.  Saturday,  I left the house at eight, and got home after ten.  Add in daylight savings time, and all the running around I did to just get caught up over the weekend, and I am just a little over tired today.  Anyway, I am getting dried off and dressed and I look at my hand and start wondering why it looks weird.  And the I realized both hand looks weird.  What are those bumps?  I looked at it from the top and bottom. The bottom looks okay but the top has these little protrusions, like lines, only they are raised?  …… And then it hit me…..hello!!  Those are bones!!!    Bones???  I never saw bones in my hand before??    And why are some parts more blue??  Veins!!!  Those are veins!!!!  How weird??? This must be like regular people’s hands!!  How amazing!!

Now,  I realize to any regular sized friend, you think is this woman for real? But I have been overweight most of my life, trust me, seeing bones is like ….. Awesome!!!  My hands have always been chubby, they look like my mom’s hands.  We do not have girly hands, our hands look like they work, mostly because they do.  And honestly?  I never realized you could actually lose fat in your hands.

So then, I started looking, really looking.  It turns out that even people like me have bones…. like ALL over our  body!   Lol!!   When I started with Dr. Jack, I knew I would get smaller…. I just don’t think I really understood what “smaller” meant.  I think I really have to work on what my head actually sees.  Because seriously, the image in my mind and reality are NOT the same.

I am not sure where I thought the seventy some pounds came off of, but it didn’t occur to me that it falls off everywhere.  That explains a lot!  My shoes fit different! The bones in my feet are more visible. I have to my sneakers tighter.

I can see my collar bone.  When I put on my necklace, it hangs lower.   I can see my cheekbones.   My bracelets fit different.  I wondered if they just got loose because they fall up my arm farther than before.  I had to buy new underwear a few weeks ago, (sorry about the TMI but I hadn’t figured on that!)  And that explains why my pajamas keep getting looser, I guess it’s not the elastic that I thought had worn out!   Last week, while bringing up the laundry, I had to stop every few steps and pull up my pajama pants which also seem longer

A few weeks ago,  I had to buy new bras.  (Sorry men who read this.)   I explained my newest bra problem with nothing fitting right, straps I had to resew to adjust properly and the older sales lady ran to get her measuring tape. “Honey, you are buying the wrong band size! No wonder these don’t fit right?”  What??  No, I am sure that was wrong,  I quickly explained to her that I have worn this size for years, and she pulled off the measuring tape. “See for yourself!”  I stared at the tape with disbelief.   What???  That can’t be.  I mean isn’t your rib cage the same size?   She looked at me and patted my hand. “Sweetheart, you just told me you lost seventy pounds.  Where did you think it fell off of??  You need to invest in a couple of in between ones because it looks like you will need ones again.”  I kept looking at her like she was from Mars.  “When you lose weight, it falls of everywhere.  Yes, you will be back in here a few months again.”

I don’t know where I thought it went.   Of course, this means a lot of new investment but I hesitate because I don’t want to invest a lot in new things.  I am just buying enough to make it through a season and then I will worry about it after my size settles somewhere.   I have become a frequent flyer at gently used clothing stores and take anything a friend or relative offers.   I have scored big on tops and a spring jacket from people.

All I know is despite cost?   This is a really great problem to have!!!!  I typically don’t wish problems on friends.   But in this case I am making an exception!!!!  I hope you decide to make the big step to helping yourself.  Hope your clothes don’t fit soon!!!!