Nine months….. Hard to believe…. Nine months. 95 pounds to date. Look out 100, I see you!!
Things have gone a little slower weight wise and yet when I look at it and think, could I believe I would be here today… The answer is NO!! My partner, Dr. Jack Saia, http://drsaia. , he believed it, but I didn’t. My teammate had every hope that we would make 100 pounds before a year. I couldn’t believe him, I was afraid to. But 100 is in site with time to make 110!
Here we are, and I can hardly type through the drippy tears of joy. I tried to tell him today what it meant….
You know, Dr. Jack is a very modest man. Every time I try to tell him what this all has meant to me, I can almost hear his discomfort at the other end of the phone. And what doesn’t help is me getting so choked up I can’t find the right words. He keeps saying its me, and I keep,saying its him. Maybe one day the right combination of words can come. How can he know? He wasn’t living inside here so he really doesn’t understand.
And the absolute truth is that it took both of us, working together as a team. I realize that now. I remember my first stumble early on. Things just didn’t seem to move and I was scared he would think I wasn’t doing my best. And clear as if it was yesterday, I can hear him, “Listen to me Chris, are you listening? Really listening? We are a team, you and I. I believe everything you tell me. And you have to believe what I am telling you.”
Those words have held me up on lots of days I wanted to fall down. We make an awesome team!!! He has provided encouragement, education, guidance, cutting edge information, a great sense of humor, acceptance of what I was, believing in me when I was too scared to believe in myself, and he brought the push!!! I brought a willingness to learn, determination, a willingness to ask and ask and ask, and drive to not give up no matter what the obstacle. I want this so much!!!! No one knows how much as well as he does!! And you put that all together, and how could we be anything BUT successful!!!
I love Dr. Jack. He is my hero. The whole world kept telling me that there was no hope except surgery. The whole world screamed that the problem was me! That I was a liar…. That I had no willpower…. Guess what??? It wasn’t ME!!
95 pounds…..no brain fog….. Not a single Hashimoto symptom….not hypothyroid issues…. No sadness…. No depression….No weird skin….No weird food cravings…..No panic feelings when you can’t remember things……
Instead… Happy!! Healthy….Normal!!! Wake up feeling ready for a great day, every single day!! Exercise!!! Yard work!! Pilates!!! YMCA classes!! A trainer!!! Enjoying being outside!!! Finishing tasks!!! Enjoying LIFE!
All that AND 95 pounds…..inside I feel about 28……Gosh today is such a great day! Thank you Dr. Jack!! You are the most amazing man!! Where would I be without you today??? Thanks for making sure that this part of my life is sooooooo much more than I thought it could be!!! Hugggggggggggggggggggggggggg