Go ahead!! Be as stubborn as you want! That’s what has gotten me here!
I was looking at the calendar and thinking, wow…. Last summer…. How low I was last summer. I felt like I was on the ground, beat up, dirty, tired, exhausted and not a single ounce of hope left. I felt betrayed by some in the medical profession, people I had trusted. I felt like I had nothing left but to accept my disease and my weight, and that from then forward would just be a steady road downward. But I was wrong. There was still a lot of fight left in me. There was a doctor just waiting for me to find him, Dr Jack! There were answers! I just needed to take a minute and breathe…. You ever felt that way??
It was at this time that all the discouragement began. It was around this time I had already visited the nutritionist who called me a liar, one in a line of nutritionists who all told me I was doing it wrong from the advice of the previous one. I had already been told I had no hope except weight loss surgery, which I might have been okay with, but I knew the problem wasn’t going away with some stomach staples. I had already been told that I needed to meet with a counselor to discuss my need to get help because I just was seeking attention. Yeah okay, me, who prefers invisibility. I was told I had falsified my diet journal, even though that wasn’t true since I had eaten Paleo for months. I had attended exercises classes where people had laughed at me and made fun of me. I was done. Gosh, I was soooooo done!
You get enough of that and one day, you hit the wall. And I hit it hard. I was finished trying. My only prayer was for acceptance. I remember clearly driving to my church, sitting with a box of Kleenex and praying that I could learn acceptance of my disease and my body because I felt powerless to change any of it. No one believed me, and I was doubting my own self. Did I eat more than I thought? Had I measured everything?? It was hard. I knew I was doing what I should and yet, I just wasn’t getting results, and to top it off, no one believed it.
But, that was then, and now that story is just that…. A story. It’s all gone now!! It’s gone, good bye, adios, see you, out of here, gone! That poor sad person who felt like a total failure is gone. And she is replaced by ME! I am no a dieting failure! There were other answers for me! There were foods that could help me. There were exercises I could have done if someone had taken time to help me. There were changes to my diet that would have alleviated my symptoms if someone had told me! There were answers for me!
I am really stubborn. People tell me that all the time. It has always been a a terrible personality trait. But now I realize that in being stubborn I refused to give up. No matter how angry I was, and despite saying I was done, I actually still looked for an answer. And I was lucky enough and blessed enough to find one.
And my message for today is you can too! Be stubborn!! Be as stubborn as you want! Hashimoto’s is one disease that people fight but there’s a lot in life that we fight every single day. Diseases, health, mental issues, physical issues, finances, kids, family, friends, name it. So dig in your heels and refuse to believe what you know is not true! Find your answers!
Don’t like what you are being told? Find someone else and don’t give up until you find the truth that is your truth!! It’s easy for me to say that today. Last summer?? Ummmmm yeah, not as much. But the truth is, if I could do this, then I can do just about anything, and so can you!! No matter what you are fighting, just don’t give up. And if you fall down or are pushed down, just get back up!
Find your answer!! And be stubborn about it!